Sunday, 17 December 2017

December Currently



In the month of December, I kinda have this rule that if I'm going to do anything, it HAS to be Christmas themed. My theory is that there is only one month of the year that we are allowed to be Christmassy for and so I'm gunna flipping make the most of it! 

So with that in mind, here is a list of my fave Christmas things I'm loving currently. 

Current fave films?
I usually love ones like Elf, The Holiday, It's a Wonderful Life that kinda stuff. But this year I've realllyyyy been loving anything on Netflix especially the really bad cheesy Netflix originals like A Christmas Prince and A Wish for Christmas. 

I've got a secret for ya though... I've never seen Home Alone. I know, I know, I need to get on it haha!

Current fave music?
Anything by Pentatonix. Seriously. I'm loving them this year!

Current fave food?
Mince pies. Also I know it's not a food, but mulled wine. Alllll of the mulled wine. I found that Tesco do bottles for £6 and I've been loving itttttttt.

Current fave scent?
We got a Yankee Candle advent calendar from my parents'-in-law which has a different Yankee tealight for each day. I'm SO loving having a different scent in our little flat each evening. I think my fave though is Christmas Garland!

Current fave places to shop for gifts?
I've been getting some great things on Amazon, and also Argos!



Merry Christmas, all!

Thursday, 14 December 2017

Christmas Stuff






I love Christmas. I mean, who doesn't?! Who doesn't love the cheesy Christmas films and the cinnamon and the classic songs you blare out and sing to from the top of your lungs?! I love how Christmas unites everyone together. 

We've got our decorations up. We've got mulled wine and mince pies. We've got the majority of our presents bought.

But there are many things I still need to do with regards to Christmas tasks.

These include:

  • Buying presents for our niece and nephew - we have no idea!
  • Writing Christmas cards - blerghhhhh is there much point?! Aren't they just going to be thrown away in a few weeks?!
  • Wrapping up the presents we do have - now this I'm looking forward to do whilst watching a Christmas movie.
  • Working out when we're going to be able to meet up with family - with Jon being a pastor and so working on Christmas day, and me working in retail so working allll the dayssss around Christmas - we're finding that quite difficult.

So. Whilst I try to tackle that Christmas to do list, I have so much to be thankful for today. It's my day off, it's Christmas, and today is the youth team's Christmas meal, and I am very excited about that! CHRISTMASSSSS ALL DAYYYYY!!

Thursday, 7 December 2017

Disappointment


Today I had an interview for a job role I thought would be perfect for me. It not only would mean working with children - which I love, but it would mean getting out of the job I'm in at the moment which I reeeeaaaallllyyy hate. Like I mean crying before a shift hate. For me the new job role would mean no more working silly hours. It would mean no more achy legs from standing in the same place all day. It would mean no more not caring about selling over priced clothes. It would mean a consistent schedule. It would mean being able to see my Mum and brothers more, who I miss so much. It would mean 2 actual consecutive days off in a week. 

I bet you can feel from the way I worded the last paragraph that I didn't get the job. 

I'm not going to lie to you - I just feel so disheartened and disappointed. I wanted SO much to get this job and start a new chapter in my life. This was my ticket out of the job I hate. This was me starting on the path to the job I actually want to do. 

But God had different plans. 

I got a text from my Mum which said, "If God closes a door it's better than being in the wrong place", which I KNOW is true, and if I'm being honest with you, I knew this wasn't the place for me. As soon as I came out of the interview, I said to Jon "I don't think I've got it." 

I was just hopeful that it would bring me out of the place I'm in at the moment. 

I feel empty and sad, but I know I know I know that the best is yet to come because I trust that my God has amazing things in store for me - whether it's getting the same job role but in a different place, or not. He is sovereign over everything and yes, I feel sad and disappointed, but I would never want to miss out on the great things God has in store for me because I think I know best by being in the wrong place! 

Matthew 6:33 (NLT): Seek Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.  

Not want, but need.

xx

Thursday, 16 November 2017

Exploring and Catching Up




This Sunday I decided to meet up with some dear friends I hadn't seen in literally 9 months. Like I could have made and grown a baby in the time I haven't seen them, which to me is crazy. 

It started with the trains being cancelled and I had to get a bus, which may sound easy to some, but I get all anxious and panicky when it comes to trains (why, I have no idea), so the day started with me calling Jon and crying down the phone. 

I then got my s*** together, asked a train man for help (he wasn't really that helpful, and he was also grumpy which really didn't make the situation any easier for me. Thanks stupid train man), and I got onto the bus and on my way. 

I met up with my friends and we decided to go to a board game cafe for lunch - I KNOW!! There were so many board games we had no idea where to start! We ended up opting for a game where you balance things on a pirate ship. 

Then, we went for a walk and explored the city a bit more. When we felt peckish we went for a cream tea. I had mine with a lavender tea - oooh how posh! 

Then we went punting. I'm a very panicky person and this was a very wobbly boat!! We were so close to the water! It was so lovely and relaxing though! 

And to finish off we went to a Moroccon tapas restaurant which was incredibly decorated and looked so hippiesh. I'm such a hippy at heart! It was so lovely.

SO in all, I had such a good day, and cathing up with old friends is the BEST. 

Wednesday, 1 November 2017

Hitting the Right Spot


So it was a Monday. I'd had a crazy busy weekend with working on the Saturday and then travelling to another city to catch up with old friends on the Sunday. 

I'd spent the Monday morning cleaning up our little flat and making me feel like I could be relaxed and breathe again, before going back to work at 12. 

When I came back home it was 9pm and you know when there's nothing in the fridge because you need to do the weekly shop and you just want to eat what you fancy? 

Yeah, me too.

I ended up coming home, firstly taking my skinny jeans off (because who doesn't want to do that the minute they step through the door?!) and making myself a feast which consisted of: hummus, toasted pitta, breaded cod, a boiled egg, dried fruit and it was washed down with a white wine whilst I caught up with the Strictly Come Dancing final. 

It was weird, but you know what?! It hit the right spot and I went to bed a happy lady. Sorted.

Thursday, 10 August 2017

Finding the good


Last week I had a week of work as it was my birthday. I hung out with friends, ate a lot of good food and laughed a lot. So this is week, as I'm back in the job I hate I'm finding the days all the more difficult. To tackle this, change my way of thinking and try to live my best life, I'm actively trying to find little things in life to be thankful for. I'm trying to find the good in the bad. 

Here we go. 

Listening to Tori Kelly. I just forgot how much of a babe she is. I've been listening to her whilst washing up, and singing along at the top of my lungs. Her music is not only uplifting but it has such a great message. The song Confetti is the best. 

I'm also managing to keep on top of washing up 😱 this rarely happens, but somehow I'm dominating it at the moment and I'm loving it.

Just did our weekly shop and I'm LOVING having a fully stocked fridge.

We've also finally got bookshelves!!!!! You might \remember me talking about how all our DVD's were in a pile on the floor in this post. Well, we got bookshelves and it's so nice to have a place to stick stuff! The flat looks so much bigger and cleaner now they're not stored in carrier bags in the corner. And whilst I mention it, we now have hooks so lots of photos are hanging up, annnnnnd I have a FULL LENGTH MIRROR. Glory be. 


So, I might hate where I spend 8 hours of my day five days a week, but I've got a lot to be grateful for that has happened just this week. So much to be grateful for. Even that I have a job that means I can buy things like bookshelves and albums and food to stock my fridge with. 

xx

Monday, 7 August 2017

I was a bridesmaid!



I included the picture of me and Rosie walking down the aisle, because in my memory I was a blubbering mess. But actually this picture tells me I didn't look as much of a mess as I was feeling!!

So. In January I was a bridesmaid for my roommate at uni. It was a fun day and I cried lots.

Highlights include:
  • Seeing her in her dress and crying because "she looks like a bride"
  • Drinking a little too much and not taking the cΓ¨ilidh dancing seriously at all. Like I think we annoyed some people we were being so stupid πŸ˜‚
  • Laughing so much I cried
  • Catching up with people I hadn't seen in a while
  • Eating cheese and crackers
Non-highlights incude:
  • Paying £11 for a double vodka and coke. £11!!!! Literally robbed. 

Saturday, 5 August 2017

23!


So. As of two days ago I am 23!! I feel like 23 means I'm more of an adult than when I was 22 because it's closer to 25. Is that weird? I feel like it's weird, but also I feel like it makes a lot of sense in my head haha!

So for a bullet point quick rundown of the actual day:

  • Jon brought me a coffee in bed, and made me a fried egg bagel for breakfast. He knows my hearts desires ;)
  • We then took part in the kids holiday club at church from 10-12 as we have been helping out at holiday club this week. 
  • After kids club, Jon had to finish some work, so I came home and had some time to myself.
  • We had pancakes for lunch. WIN.
  • We hung out with our friends Joe and Jess, and they had gotten me a birthday cake with candles that I could blow out. I haven't had a cake with candles I could blow out candles for like 4 years. 
  • I got given a tiara that I had to wear all day. OKAY!
  • We went to the pub for our weekly pub quiz, and ate some food. I had a cheese tart and sweet potato fries. Heavenly.
  • We went back to Joe and Jess' where they had made me a cheeseboard with crackers and red wine. They know me so well!! 
  • And so I finished off my day eating waaaaay too many cheese and biscuits, and watching the new Beauty and the Beast movie, which I LOVED. 

And that was it. Simple, but I spent time with friends and I laughed. What more could a girl want?!

And so here are the resolutions I want to make for the next year of my life:

  1. I know this was the resolution on my 'I turned 22' post, but reading more really is something I want to try to do!!
  2. Learn to drive. So. When I turn 24, I would love to be able to drive! 
  3. Do three things daily - 30 mins of piano practice, some sort of stretching and spend some time with Jesus reading the bible. I've always wanted to do these three things daily, but this year I would like to be proactive about it, and not put it off!! 
And that's it!!

Here's to the best year of my life so far!! 

xx

Monday, 17 July 2017

Why I Started Blogging

Last year, in her early nineties, my Nan passed away. She had suffered with vascular dementia for the last ten years of her life but it had only been diagnosed for the last 4 years.

She was a lady with a huge sense of humour, she loved life and would constantly sing. She never took anything seriously and she would sometimes get into fits of laughter and no one could understand what she was saying - or so I hear.

The thing is, I never really knew her.

All I know of her is from when she was ill. All I can remember of her was when she would ask me the same question repeatedly. All I can remember is when she would say weird things. All I can remember is when she couldn't differentiate between her grandsons and it would upset her.

I remember so profoundly the few times her dementia would subside and Mum would say "I saw a glimpse of her, then." But they were so few and far between, and they would only last for 5 minutes.

So when she went to heaven last year, I didn't mourn her. I cried, a lot, but I didn't mourn her.

I didn't mourn her because I knew her really. Not the way she really was.

The day after she passed away, my Granddad got out a letter that she had written to him when they were just dating. It just talked of how she missed the bus, and how she was planning on going to the post office the next day, but I cried and cried and cried knowing that she wrote this letter because it reminded me of the fact that she used to be someone who was did normal things and I never knew that person.

It was her but before I had ever known her and that, to me, was so special.

So in short, that is why I wanted to write this blog. Maybe I'll have kids one day, and maybe they'll have kids. And maybe they can read up on bits of my life and it can be special to them.

And that is why I love this little blog which talks about silly conversations I've had and the things I'm loving at the moment, and the way I'm feeling at the moment.

They're little pieces of my normal life that won't be here for long!

Monday, 10 July 2017

I Work in Retail #2


I was serving a lady at the till, and she pops her card into the chip and pin machine. She then shuffles from foot to foot sighing, staring at the machine.

She then looks at me and says, "Uh, it's just saying please wait."

I look at her and, without wanting to be rude, awkwardly respond, "Um.. so.. probably.. just erm, wait?"

Monday, 3 July 2017

Just Starting Out.


I have always been impatient. I have this mentality like I WANT IT ALL AND I WANT IT ALL NOW. The wallpaper on my phone says 'one step at a time', because I really need to always remind myself that allll it's about the journey and that pretty much everything worth doing it better when it's done one step at a time.

This includes my and Jon's living situation. 

I always said that I loved the stories of people who said, "when we first got married we only had a mattress on the floor and a fridge" or whatever. I love hearing of how people started and how they worked themselves up bit by bit. It sounds silly but I just never realised that they obviously had to live in that moment, with the bare minimum. 

So at this point in our loves, Jon and I are doing just that. Our DVD collection is on the floor. Our TV is balancing on a tiny chest of drawers. We have no full length mirror (that bit is killinggggg me). Jon is getting sick of the amount of times I keep saying, "We really need a..." 

BUT this is us starting out. I know we've been married for 8 months, but we lived for the first 6 months in a house share (I HATED it, the less said about that the better). So this is really the beginning for us. 

I never want to forget this bit. I never want to forget where we started. I WANT to build it up. I WANT to get things slowly. So, I took some pictures and I wanted this to be our story. I wanted this to be our, "when we started out we lived in boxes for the first year" etc. 

This is life and life is all about 'one step at a time'.


Our DVD collection layed out on the floor. You can also see the PS4 balancing on the DVD's. This makes it difficult when we want to watch a film that's under there!


We still have lots of boxes out because we live in a 1 bed flat and so storage space is minimal. We just need some pretty storage boxes haha! The bottom box is board games, The box above is photo frames we need to stick up, but we have to get adhesive hooks first, and the top box is electricals and just has lots of wires, chargers and headphones in it!!


This is our current photo layout, because we still need the hooks to pop the photos on the wall!


This is a double duvet that is for when we have people stay over. It's placed on some bags and boxes full of books, and sits in between our fridge/freezer and our sofa!


The fact that we don't have guitar stands drives me crazy!! Jon also bought the really lovely canvas in the left corner a few weeks ago, but because we don't have any adhesive hooks we can't stick it on the wall, so it's hidden by our dining table (which is what I'm sat at whilst writing this!).


This is our closet situation! Look at all the shoes haha! The small box on the right consists of my underwear and the larger pink one is overflowing with pyjamas and trousers/leggings/jogging bottoms. The top section has Christmas decorations, a suitcase, and just random bits of Jon's clothing. I have no idea but I'm sure there's method to his madness!

"I don't care if you don't believe it, that's the kind of house I live in and I hope I never leave it" - Dr Seuss.

Monday, 26 June 2017

I Work in Retail #1


A man came up to me holding a jacket up. "Excuse me," he said, "I just wanted to ask your opinion." 
"Ok!" I said, "What's wrong?"
"So erm, I'm getting this for my partner. She's around a size 10-12, so what do you think?"
"Well," I said, "with a jacket, it's always a good idea to go bigger, because she'll obviously be wearing clothes underneath"
A confused look spreads onto his face, and he says, "what do you mean, a jacket?!"

"Erm, well, er, that's a jacket"

"Oh, Ok. Thanks." And with that, he walks away.

Monday, 19 June 2017

Baking Goddess - kind of - actually not really

So the thing is.. I'm actually quite good at cooking. Give me some tomatoes and a ladle and I'm all good. Baking on the other hand has never been my strong point. But I just wanna be like Mary Berry. I wanna be a baking whizz and everyone to go, "Oh yeah, Lavinia's amazing at baking". 

So when I saw this video on youtube, I thought, "right. This is my time to make something amazing and everyone will be so impressed. It looks easy enough." 

It looks easy enough. Famous last words. 

This is what happened...


No electric whisk. That's ok, I'll just do it by hand. I didn't realise how long it would take and how dead my arm would be after. 



I then got some in my hair. No idea how seeing as I'm not using an electric whisk. This was doomed from the start, wasn't it?!


Looks a bit lumpy. I'm sure it'll be fine. Maybe it's cos I thought I had almond flour, but I didn't. I had ground almonds. So I just stuck that in instead.


Why does my red part look so brown?! Maybe it's cos of the ground almonds. Maybe it's cos the food colouring was a weird colour.


This bit was cool.. I felt like Mary herself.


But it looks a bit weird... A little bit like poop.



It seems all my hard work has failed.... Why are the cookies one colour?! Where did the brown/red parts go?!?!


I stuck some strawberry jam in the middle and the creamcheese on the outside.. Except I ran out of icing sugar so I had to use granulated.. So the creamcheese section was a bit, erm, crunchy. Oops.


I then whacked the other half on top. Look how picturesque! Or... maybe just a good angle?



And here they are!! Nothing like what the buzzfeed video said they would, but they're somewhat edible.

Here's Jonno testing them...



Oh. Oh dear. It seems that it was the crunchy cream cheese that put him off. 
I'll stick to cooking then!

Wednesday, 10 May 2017

Think it's too late?!



You feel unmotivated because you think it's too late to do something?! You can do ANYTHING you set your mind to if you work hard enough. Watch this.

Sunday, 7 May 2017

Pride comes before a fall...




You know that saying "pride comes before a fall"? This morning I thought I was all #wifegoals, because I had three hobs on the go - one making my porridge, and the other two making vegetable stirfry and quinoa. Yep, you got that, QUINOA for my lunch for the next week. So middle class. So on top of things.

I was being all proud and thinking all how great I was at this cooking malarkey. Next thing I knew I could smell something not very appetising. What was that smell?! Where was it coming from?! 

You got it.. I'd burnt the bottom of my porridge. 

Not as on top of things as I'd have hoped! πŸ˜‚ 

Thursday, 4 May 2017

NOTE TO SELF



Note to self: remember that whilst you might think the film "in her shoes" may be a fun light hearted chick flick, but actually it will have you blubbering by yourself on your own, while you're supposed to be packing the house up to move. 

Not a good move πŸ˜‰πŸ˜Œ

Saturday, 25 March 2017

We Live in Such a Weird World!


This morning as I was getting ready to go out, I watched last night's Red Nose Day (literally only to watch red nose day actually - the charity remake of love actually).

One of the stories they showed was of a mother who had to leave her 3 children under 10 at home all day so she could search a landfill site all day, in the boiling sun, and at the end of the day only have earnt as little as 25p.

And now, only hours later, I'm sitting on a train behind a girl who literally took 20 minutes to pick out and edit an instagram photo.

Like I don't wanna judge or belittle the girl; she's just a product of the society she's grown up in. But I just thought it was SO scary to me how much it's such a horrific contrast in lives and priorities.

Sunday, 12 March 2017

Trusting IN the moment.

So many times there's been a bad situation in my life, and I've cried about it. I've worried about it. I've tried to sort it by myself.

And then I've found that It's only when I come out of the situation that I realise God was so present and he was there the whole time moving all the pieces at the right time to make an incredible story. And then, when I realise, I'm annoyed at myself that I didn't trust God when I was right there in the moment.

So that's what I'm trying to do now.

After Jon and I finished university in June, we felt that God was telling us to stay in the city we were in. It felt right, so we did. But then stuff started going wrong;  and in short the past 12 months have had some of the worst moment of my life, bringing out breakdowns and panic attacks that I've never experienced before. I was so confused I didn't know why this was happening. Weren't we obedient?! Weren't we faithful?!

A lot of the time we just felt stuck. Especially as we were both spending our days in jobs that were not ones we wanted to be in. We felt hopeless.

This was until last week when Jon was offered the job of his dreams in a city about an hour and a half away. Things were looking up, and we've started to get excited about it - especially as they've asked him to start as soon as possible!

But. We're not quite there yet.. We're still waiting to find a flat. We're still waiting for me to get a job there. There's still a lot we need to get done and do. But this time we're going to trust IN the moment, like we should have all this time.

I'll keep you updated!!

Monday, 27 February 2017

Just Wishin'

At the moment Jon and I are saving up to move to another city, and all the fun stuff that goes with that, so obviously all our spare money is going straiiiiiiight into our savings account! So that just leaves me to go on websites window shopping all into all sorts of different stuff that I'm gunna have to wait for. Such a hard life eh?!

Here they are:
  1.  A few weeks ago I got a fitbit, and whilst I love it, it's not the daintiest. I looked different straps on amazon and found THIS beeeeeeautiful rose-gold one.
  2. My bag at the moment is a teeeeny tiny sparkly back pack, which is useful for most days, except on a day when I'm at work because it's so small my lunch doesn't fit in it! This bag would be great because not only is it simple, but it's mahusive! Great for big lunches! 
  3. This one, quite simply, was on our Jon and I's wedding list for our bedside tables, and as a result we were only bought one! Haha! We just need the other one to match!
  4. I have a big pink fluffy dressing gown that I love. But I saw this one, which is made out of towel material. Just think, getting out if the shower and wrapping up in a dressing gown shaped towel?!?! YES PLEASE!
  5. I saw this on a friend's fridge. It's magnetic and a whiteboard and you can write on it the meals you've planned to have in the week, and your shopping list and I think it's great!
  6. At the moment I epilate all my unwanted hair, which is ok but is sooo not good for ingrown hairs! They're all over my legs! Could an IPL hair remover thing-ma-bob be the answer?! I don't know because it's expensive. But I'd LOVE to try it one day! 
  7. I know this is boring, but a stainless steel dish drying rack seems ideal. We have a purple plastic one at the moment and it gets grubby so quickly! Ahh adult life! 
  8. I have ALWAYS wanted a big professional camera. And now I'm making youtube videos regularly, I have double reasons for wanting a good quality camera. 
  9. A big chested lady can never have too many decent bras, and all mine are so old they're missshapen (attractive!). 2 basic t-shirt bras would be great. 
And that's it. Maybe once we've moved and saved I can go on a massive shopping spree and get all these. Or maybe I'll just keep wishin.

Monday, 13 February 2017

Revelations.


Hello!

I have a cold, a spot on the bridge of my nose, I'm watching FRIENDS and I'm waiting for my nails to dry.

I had a revelation yesterday.

I read a quote from someone famous that said "I'm not a morning person. But I'm not really much of a night person either." And I realised that that's me. I get cranky when I stay up late, but I'm also cranky in the morning. And that's ok. It's also ok to not know whether you are an introvert or an extrovert. I don't know either. Sometimes I love being around people, and sometimes I love being alone. And that's ok.

People are so diverse; not just as individual people to one another, but also as individual people. One day I could feel one way, and the next day I would feel completely different. And that's ok.

I'm not a morning person, and I'm not a night owl. I'm not an extrovert or an introvert.

Boom.

Wednesday, 8 February 2017

London for Work




7:30: So. I'm sitting on a train.  It's half 7 and I've been up since 6 even though I had rehearsal till midnight last night. I'm on my way to London to go to somewhere for work, although I have no idea what it is. All I have is a postcode. I've never been to London by myself before, and the last time I came was two years ago. This could be interesting. Feeling a little tired and anxious to say the least... 
 
11:04: I got to the place where I needed to be 40 minutes early, signed in and told the receptionist that I knew I was ridiculously early so I didn't mind waiting. I waited for 20 minutes until the receptionist came and found me and said "hey, I'm really sorry but the event's been cancelled. We sent your manager an email on Monday to let everyone know" 

So now I'm in London with nothing to do. It feels a waste to go straight home but I don't know what I want to do. 

11:07: So I was on the tube ready to go home, and the lady on the the tube just said, "Change here for the museum of London" Sure, why not! I hope it's free!

11:09: Just got beeped at and almost killed by a motorbike cos I didn't look before I crossed the road. I forgot the crayzee roads of London.

11:04: Yes!! It's free!

11:20: Stuck in the museum of London. Literally no idea how to get out. There're so many primary school children. 

11:29: There were so many children and so much information it was hard to concentrate, so I'm off to the national gallery. 

11:37: My phone crashed. Twice.

12:07: Entered the national gallery.

13:03: I've just left, inspired by creativity and now I'm going home.

13:11: I tripped. Awkward.

13:32: Tripped again. This time up the stairs in the underground, I almost landed on two ladies and one gasped. Very awkward. 

13:55: Tripped up the escalator in Paddington station. This is getting ridiculous now.

14:10: Got a coffee before boarding the train back home. 

14:16: Walked into a closing door on the train, making quite a loud bang noise. I just carried one as if nothing had happened...

16:44: Got off the train, and now going home. 


That was a wierd day, but I learnt that I'm a badass who can do London and the tubes, even if I trip up a lot. 

xx