Tuesday, 30 January 2018

Looking after yourself

This week has been so relaxed. I had the week booked off work (because I had holiday to take and I ) decided to spend the week with my Mum and two littelest brothers. 

These past few months have been hectic what with a full time job, trying to stay up with uploading to YouTube twice a week, and volunteering to help work with Jonno and his job. Whilst I love doing all that I do and I wouldn't change it, it's not come without many tears I tell ya!

But this week, I went back to my hometown with nothing but my laptop and the idea to binge-watch as much Gossip Girl on Netflix as I can. And rest assured, that I have done! I have gotten through a season and a half in three days! 

Sometimes I worry so much about making every single day count towards where I want my future to be, and taking time out to just worry about nothing and do what you feel like in the moment is so beneficial and I reckon that doing nothing the past 5 days will make the next few months better. 

So now, I'm feeling super relaxed, and I'm looking forward to spending the night catching up with my bestie, and I'm reallllllllyyyy looking forward to being reuntied with Jonno tomorrow! 

Sunday, 17 December 2017

December Currently

In the month of December, I kinda have this rule that if I'm going to do anything, it HAS to be Christmas themed. My theory is that there is only one month of the year that we are allowed to be Christmassy for and so I'm gunna flipping make the most of it! 

So with that in mind, here is a list of my fave Christmas things I'm loving currently. 

Current fave films?
I usually love ones like Elf, The Holiday, It's a Wonderful Life that kinda stuff. But this year I've realllyyyy been loving anything on Netflix especially the really bad cheesy Netflix originals like A Christmas Prince and A Wish for Christmas. 

I've got a secret for ya though... I've never seen Home Alone. I know, I know, I need to get on it haha!

Current fave music?
Anything by Pentatonix. Seriously. I'm loving them this year!

Current fave food?
Mince pies. Also I know it's not a food, but mulled wine. Alllll of the mulled wine. I found that Tesco do bottles for £6 and I've been loving itttttttt.

Current fave scent?
We got a Yankee Candle advent calendar from my parents'-in-law which has a different Yankee tealight for each day. I'm SO loving having a different scent in our little flat each evening. I think my fave though is Christmas Garland!

Current fave places to shop for gifts?
I've been getting some great things on Amazon, and also Argos!

Merry Christmas, all!

Thursday, 14 December 2017

Christmas Stuff

I love Christmas. I mean, who doesn't?! Who doesn't love the cheesy Christmas films and the cinnamon and the classic songs you blare out and sing to from the top of your lungs?! I love how Christmas unites everyone together. 

We've got our decorations up. We've got mulled wine and mince pies. We've got the majority of our presents bought.

But there are many things I still need to do with regards to Christmas tasks.

These include:

  • Buying presents for our niece and nephew - we have no idea!
  • Writing Christmas cards - blerghhhhh is there much point?! Aren't they just going to be thrown away in a few weeks?!
  • Wrapping up the presents we do have - now this I'm looking forward to do whilst watching a Christmas movie.
  • Working out when we're going to be able to meet up with family - with Jon being a pastor and so working on Christmas day, and me working in retail so working allll the dayssss around Christmas - we're finding that quite difficult.

So. Whilst I try to tackle that Christmas to do list, I have so much to be thankful for today. It's my day off, it's Christmas, and today is the youth team's Christmas meal, and I am very excited about that! CHRISTMASSSSS ALL DAYYYYY!!

Thursday, 7 December 2017


Today I had an interview for a job role I thought would be perfect for me. It not only would mean working with children - which I love, but it would mean getting out of the job I'm in at the moment which I reeeeaaaallllyyy hate. Like I mean crying before a shift hate. For me the new job role would mean no more working silly hours. It would mean no more achy legs from standing in the same place all day. It would mean no more not caring about selling over priced clothes. It would mean a consistent schedule. It would mean being able to see my Mum and brothers more, who I miss so much. It would mean 2 actual consecutive days off in a week. 

I bet you can feel from the way I worded the last paragraph that I didn't get the job. 

I'm not going to lie to you - I just feel so disheartened and disappointed. I wanted SO much to get this job and start a new chapter in my life. This was my ticket out of the job I hate. This was me starting on the path to the job I actually want to do. 

But God had different plans. 

I got a text from my Mum which said, "If God closes a door it's better than being in the wrong place", which I KNOW is true, and if I'm being honest with you, I knew this wasn't the place for me. As soon as I came out of the interview, I said to Jon "I don't think I've got it." 

I was just hopeful that it would bring me out of the place I'm in at the moment. 

I feel empty and sad, but I know I know I know that the best is yet to come because I trust that my God has amazing things in store for me - whether it's getting the same job role but in a different place, or not. He is sovereign over everything and yes, I feel sad and disappointed, but I would never want to miss out on the great things God has in store for me because I think I know best by being in the wrong place! 

Matthew 6:33 (NLT): Seek Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.  

Not want, but need.


Thursday, 16 November 2017

Exploring and Catching Up

This Sunday I decided to meet up with some dear friends I hadn't seen in literally 9 months. Like I could have made and grown a baby in the time I haven't seen them, which to me is crazy. 

It started with the trains being cancelled and I had to get a bus, which may sound easy to some, but I get all anxious and panicky when it comes to trains (why, I have no idea), so the day started with me calling Jon and crying down the phone. 

I then got my s*** together, asked a train man for help (he wasn't really that helpful, and he was also grumpy which really didn't make the situation any easier for me. Thanks stupid train man), and I got onto the bus and on my way. 

I met up with my friends and we decided to go to a board game cafe for lunch - I KNOW!! There were so many board games we had no idea where to start! We ended up opting for a game where you balance things on a pirate ship. 

Then, we went for a walk and explored the city a bit more. When we felt peckish we went for a cream tea. I had mine with a lavender tea - oooh how posh! 

Then we went punting. I'm a very panicky person and this was a very wobbly boat!! We were so close to the water! It was so lovely and relaxing though! 

And to finish off we went to a Moroccon tapas restaurant which was incredibly decorated and looked so hippiesh. I'm such a hippy at heart! It was so lovely.

SO in all, I had such a good day, and cathing up with old friends is the BEST. 

Wednesday, 1 November 2017

Hitting the Right Spot

So it was a Monday. I'd had a crazy busy weekend with working on the Saturday and then travelling to another city to catch up with old friends on the Sunday. 

I'd spent the Monday morning cleaning up our little flat and making me feel like I could be relaxed and breathe again, before going back to work at 12. 

When I came back home it was 9pm and you know when there's nothing in the fridge because you need to do the weekly shop and you just want to eat what you fancy? 

Yeah, me too.

I ended up coming home, firstly taking my skinny jeans off (because who doesn't want to do that the minute they step through the door?!) and making myself a feast which consisted of: hummus, toasted pitta, breaded cod, a boiled egg, dried fruit and it was washed down with a white wine whilst I caught up with the Strictly Come Dancing final. 

It was weird, but you know what?! It hit the right spot and I went to bed a happy lady. Sorted.

Thursday, 10 August 2017

Finding the good

Last week I had a week of work as it was my birthday. I hung out with friends, ate a lot of good food and laughed a lot. So this is week, as I'm back in the job I hate I'm finding the days all the more difficult. To tackle this, change my way of thinking and try to live my best life, I'm actively trying to find little things in life to be thankful for. I'm trying to find the good in the bad. 

Here we go. 

Listening to Tori Kelly. I just forgot how much of a babe she is. I've been listening to her whilst washing up, and singing along at the top of my lungs. Her music is not only uplifting but it has such a great message. The song Confetti is the best. 

I'm also managing to keep on top of washing up 😱 this rarely happens, but somehow I'm dominating it at the moment and I'm loving it.

Just did our weekly shop and I'm LOVING having a fully stocked fridge.

We've also finally got bookshelves!!!!! You might \remember me talking about how all our DVD's were in a pile on the floor in this post. Well, we got bookshelves and it's so nice to have a place to stick stuff! The flat looks so much bigger and cleaner now they're not stored in carrier bags in the corner. And whilst I mention it, we now have hooks so lots of photos are hanging up, annnnnnd I have a FULL LENGTH MIRROR. Glory be. 

So, I might hate where I spend 8 hours of my day five days a week, but I've got a lot to be grateful for that has happened just this week. So much to be grateful for. Even that I have a job that means I can buy things like bookshelves and albums and food to stock my fridge with.